IM TIRED...

im tired of doing things that arent encouraged by god, i want to love Him with all my souls, my hearts, and my energy... coz He is soooo real in my life, sorry, lord, whenever i do it, i will feel so guilty, but for my current situation, my parents really forced me to do so..so i have to obey, is difficult to obey both at the same time, but of course i hope prioritize you, im realy tired d leh, everyone seems like dont understand my feeling as they dont know you... how ?? how ??? my tower of refuge, but i wil still thank you as you really created a lot of problems in my life, i know actually you are training me right now, you are preparing me now, i will be tough because of you in my life... I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX...